So, hey all.

I haven't been blogging here as much. I have had a lot medical testing done, and doctor's visits about my ADD/ADHD. I'm proud that the medication I have been longing for have finally been prescribed. However, my job has not been compensating me for my short-term disability for the last now going on 4 weeks (1 month).

It's been very very depressing seeing how I was going to buy a bike and for physical activity and I can't even do as my lovely therapist suggested. Well I want to pay up my rent but I can't and I'm stuck between appeal them for the pay that is rightfully mines, or throwing myself back into stress-land to continue making money, but still testing out the medication that I have been recently prescribed. The appeal process extends how long I'm not going to get paid for trying to get paid. Sighs.

If only, I wasn't forced into a short-term leave and allow to get the medication that I needed to focus at work. I don't want to freak out but mentally I'm cutting enough rugs to work for a rug shop or carpet store. Sighs.

Hoping and praying that all will get better and back to normal but I don't know.

Tired of Love. Yes, I'm Tired Already... of Love

Sick and tired of love songs and poems about love. The special feeling in your tummy and the eyes from above. Love is poison and I am not for or against it, because I was made of love just to be in a life surrounded without it. Love is comparable to a mad summer's day. I just want to have love step aside for a day, because I feel useless and confine. I am a loving person but love is like eating too much sugar all the time. I can't understand how people just love Love all the time. My stomach aches and love has made me sick on the inside because it just too much for me. I want to run and hide but love always seek me out and the world craves it like a deadly disease but no one ever want to talk about, the pain it hold and the sweat and tears, the heart's battle is understated and a convince feeling of unsure. Can I get a cure?